"don't think now, take the road"

recently i have had thoughts which are probably normal from an earthly perspective, but certainly not from a heavenly one. i have been doubting whether our family (and me in particular as the mom) can be the right one for abigail. she has waited 11 years and i am doubting whether we will be what she has hoped for. this is satan wanting me to think this way because God clearly showed Himself and His will for our family and this precious girl when He gave us the mist. if you have not read the early post titled 'the mist', please read it and then you will understand :)

several people have reminded me of His truth and gotten me back on track and i am thankful for their Godly wisdom (sandy, teri, deb, and susie arthur -- thank you.)

a favorite devotional is oswald chamber's 'My Utmost for His Highest'. this morning i read today's and tomorrow's entry since i will hopefully be sleeping on an airplane when i would normally be reading it. here is confirmation from Above, once again, that i cannot let one shred of doubt enter because He Has Already Spoken.

Don't Think Now, Take the Road (My Utmost for His Highest, June 18)

"And Peter...walked on the water to go to Jesus. But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid." Matthew 14:28-30

The wind was actually boisterous, the waves were actually high, but Peter did not see them at first. He did not reckon with them, he simply recognized his Lord and stepped out in recognition of Him, and walked on the water. Then he began to reckon with the actual things, and down he went instantly. Why could not our Lord have enabled him to walk at the bottom of the waves as well as the top of them? Neither could be done saving by recognition of the Lord Jesus.

We step right out on God over some things, then self-consideration enters in and down we go. If you are recognizing your Lord, you have no business with where He engineers your circumstances. The actual things are, but immediately you look at them and are overwhelmed, you cannot recognize Jesus, and the rebuke comes: "Wherefore didst thou doubt?" Let actual circumstances be what they may, keep recognizing Jesus, maintain complete reliance on Him.

If you debate for a second when God has spoken, it is all up. Never begin to say -- "Well, I wonder if I did hear Him speak?" Be reckless immediately, fling it all out on Him. You do not know when His voice will come, but whenever the realization of God comes in the faintest way imaginable, recklessly abandon. It is only by abandon that you recognize Him. You will only realize His voice more clearly by recklessness.

nothing more to say.