Sunday, June 20, 2010

the brady bunch we're not . . .

yet! but in five hours we will be!!!! where is alice when i need her?

Lord willing, will post pictures early evening..... i don't really feel nervous. i feel ready. yesterday i thought so many times, "only one more sleep for her as an orphan." being the psycho over-analyzer that i am, i wonder how it will feel to her to be with a white family from america? will she feel let down by her people? will she ask why none of them came forward to adopt her?

and i have wondered what sarah is thinking. i have thought "any of these millions of women could be her birth mom." she has been holding my hand alot which may mean nothing. or it may mean something. i love that girl so much.

while on the plane in chicago, i got an email from a girl in china who sends care packages to orphanages by the adopting families. i have to put a plug in for 'angela' of "ladybugsnlove". she is one amazing girl. anyway, the email said that 'ming' had not received the last letter i had written but that the orphanage would make sure she got it right away. the orphanage said she is 'well-prepared'. and then i got a second email saying she had the letter and 'she is happy about coming adoption.' oh, how i pray this is true.

i hate it that a blessing has to be born out of tragedy - her loss of birth parents. but God is the Best at restoring the broken-hearted and i pray that over time she comes to know He never ever had His Hand off her for one second.

we are all feeling a little less jet-lagged this morning. boy, that stuff kicks a serious punch. especially when you are old. ahhh, but the wonders of ambien :)

next post? well, you know.


  1. Oh, Jan...I'm so excited!! I can't wait to see pics of your precious new daughter. What a big day! I'm be praying, OK?!!

  2. Can't wait to see you with your precious daughter!!!! So amazing! Praying for the WHOLE Family

  3. My heart is in my throat just thinking how close you are to meeting your daughter in person. I admire your strength, your readiness, I too pray she is also ready for you and your love. Best wishes!!

  4. Hello... by the time you read this post you should have already accomplished a "gotcha". I woke up at 2:45 am this morning and thought about you and prayed for you. I trust everything went well and I will continue to keep you all in my prayers.