i just knew...

misty - i am writing this for you. i don't want to forget how you came to us. it is our story for now. others will know soon.

i knew if we adopted again it would be an older girl. several years older than sarah so she could look up to her and not close enough to feel like they were competing. and phoebe needed to stay the baby. i hoped for someone between thomas and sam's ages. the boys i didn't think would be phased by having a 'girl' in the midst of them, just as long as their pecking order wasn't upset :)

and i never quit reading blogs. about adoption mainly. and then i found madison adoption associates on one that linked to their special needs site. i quickly filled out an application to be able to view their files. and i started praying in earnest that God would get hold on greg's heart. i knew he would have a harder time breaking away from the world's view of we are too old and have several kids anyway. and God did it again. He turned my king's heart just the way it needed to be.

one night i just kinda half-joking threw out that i was looking at some kids up for adoption. he came over to the computer and started asking questions :) always a good sign.

and then MAA posted pictures of you from the camp ox in july. your smile overwhelmed me. you radiate. when i talked with the agency coordinator, she described you as always smiling. wanting a big family with absolutely no fears of being adopted and coming to the united states. there was one other girl that we also carefully looked at. but greg and i both kept coming back to you. you were intriguing. and you seemed just right for our family.

how could we know for sure?